Everyone in this world have at least one good friend. For me, i used to have alot! That includes my chilhood buddy, who is also my cousin, my college buddies, my high school chum and not forgetting beloved Mr. A. Well, today, my topic will be focused on my high school chum..
Since primary one, i have bonded with quite a number of people in school. Some of them lasted till i was in form 3! However, things changed. After our form 3 exam, we were gonna be placed according to the grade that we got for our exam. I studied really hard, cause it was kindda like my dream to go into science class. Sounds lame, doesn it?! Hehehe...Well, to cut story short, i got into my dream class. I was happy beyond words and not to mention proud of myself! My parents were also sharing that same feeling with me. Mind you, i was the only one in my family who had finnally made it to this soo-called prestegious class. The reason why its soo prestigous?! Well, because during that time, there were only one science class! The rest is the normal ones. Damn proud of myself!
Anyway, my other friends were not that lucky. All of them ended up in the other classess. It was kindda weird cause i dont know anyone in my new classroom. So every recess, i would go over to my friends class and try to act as if everything is still the same. Well, sad to say, i was wrong. I was treated like a stranger! We would sit together and they would completely ignore me! At first, i thought maybe i dont see them that much, so i dont have that much story to share. Besides, i told myself that they were my friends, and they wouldnt do that to me. However, as time progress, nothing changes. They still ignored me and everytime i try to start a conversation, they would only answer one or two sentences and then ignore me again. They would also hang out after school hours and not invite me! I was hurt! Being ingnored is not a very nice feeling...trust me!
After a month of trying to be friends with them again, but failed, i decided to move on. I told myself.."what good is it to be friends with people who dont want you around? I can make other friends!". So that's what i did and that is exactly what i got.
Making new friend is not an easy task especially if you are in a new environment. In my case, that would be a new class full of people most of whom i dont know. I've seen them around though. Some i've seen even far back when i was in elementary school. But somehow i've never actually been close to anyone of them. Besides, they kindda intimidate me cause prior to being in the same class as them, these bunch of students were considered the best among the best in both primary and seconday school!
Anyway, there was this one girl in class that i knew prior to entering the new and intimidating environment. I knew that girl cause coincidently we went to the same tuition class and we were also living in the same neighbourhood. In a weird kindda way, she was actullay the one who got me comfortable in the new environment. She was also kindda like the reason i hooked up with the people who i still considered as my best friends even after 10 years. Not that i couldnt get my own friends...but anywayyyyyyyy..back to the topic.
Long story cut short (again!), i became close to 5 of my classmates, namelly JO,LO,JAC,GLO, and AUD (I hope they dont mind me putting their names here...=S). We do lots of things together, like the same boyband and we even sit close to each other! We also keep in touch even after our high school years and our albums are filled with each other's pictures! That is how close we all were. However, along the years, something changes. I guess its just us growing up and finding our own ways. During that process, 2 of my close friends(Glo & Aud...) decided to give us the silent treatment. We tried to rekindle the oh-so-obvious failling friendship, but alas, we failled. It kidda saddened me, but hey, i still have the other 3!
Now, it has been close to 10 years since i have know this 3 gorgeous ladies that i place dear to my heart. We have faced many tears and laughters, accomplishments and failures and also critisism from others, but our friendship remains strong as ever! I must admit, it has not been easy to maintain the friendship. Especially when most of us are usually soo far away from each-other. Now, i am the only one who is away from home and all three of them are settled back in our hometown.
Anyway, sometimes when i'm back for the holidays, i cant help but feel kindda left out and that they seem more like normal buddies rather than a good friend to me. Reason?! Well, they tend forget that i have not seen or talk to them for quite some time soo most of their topics would be something completely new to me but old news to them. And there's also the people that i never knew were friends with them suddenly becomes the topic of the day. Talk about complete blurrness!
However, being a good friend, i dont balme them. I guess being far away from them has its disadvantages in a sense that i'm always the last one to get updates on things that involves their lives. I too, at times tend to neglect my part in updating them on what's going on in my live. Who can blame us?! With trying to juggle between work, getting rich, love and family, we hardly have time for friendship! Doing all that at one time is hard work i tell you! But, if its worth it, then why waste it?! As we all know, having a good friend or even a bunch of good friends is not an easy thing to do. It takes alot of patient, heartache, tears and ex-boyfriends (hehe..) to get where all 4 of us are right now. Will our friendship last?! I dont know. I hope so though, but i seriously dont know. Only time will tell. But i know one thing for sure. If ever our friendship falls apart (touchwood!), i will always remember them and will still keep in touch, even if its just merely as a casual friend..
But for the time being, i will not think of that (cause its kindda depressing..) and just try to enjoy myself with them....which i will be doing in..mmm...one weeks time! Wohhooooooooooo..!!
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