Drove our car for the first time today. We had bought the car in June last year, but i've never actually driven it cause i'm kindda afraid with how there are like road bullies everywhere. Anyway, since tomorrow will be a public holiday (Deepavali), we were given a half-day at the office. However, some offices still require their staff to work full day today and one such office is where Mr. A works at. Party poopers!
With half-day officially declared, we were allowed to leave by 12pm. Mr. A left work at 11:45 am and reach my office at around 12:15 pm to send me home before driving back to work. However, i wasnt ready to leave. Reason?! Well, my boss was still around, so i felt kindda guilty leaving early. Its not only my boss who were still around..the entire people in the office were still around! How can you leave without feeling guilty?! So i thought to myself.."why dont i just drive Mr.A back to work and drive the car myself? Hmm..sounds good".
By the time i got down, I saw Mr. A still stuck in the jam in front of my office, so i brave the rain and jumped into the car. Once in, I spoke of my intention to MrA. He asked.. "are you sure? Its rainning so the road is a bit slippery, you know. Do you have the confidence? Do you know which road to take latter?..ect". His worry was making me have second thoughts, which is not a good thing if i want to ever drive the car! So there i was, trying to build the confidence to drive for the first time since we bought the car, and he doesnt trust me! "Gee, thanks for the boost of confidence" i told him.
When i went down to see him, i have not packed my things as i thought i would be back to the office once i drop him off at his office. But since he wasnt sure whether to allow me to drive and i myself wasnt too sure of my decision, i decided to head up back to my office and pack. By that time it was already 12:30pm and i guess my boss wouldnt mind if i leave around this time.
Once everything was packed and my pc was shut, i headed back down without even looking at my boss (to lessen the guilt of leaving early..hehe). Since it was still early, i told Mr. A to drive home and see how it goes there. He agreed. So we headed back home. The roads were kindda empty cause most of the ppl had gone back to their respective hometowns for the long holidays, so it didnt took us long to reach home.
Reach home around 1 something, had a puff of cigaratte and off we go again. Yup, u guessed it. I will be driving the car home. The whole way to his office, Mr. A was telling me the route home i should take, that i should not worry..that i'll be fine...ect,ect. The jam around his office area when we reach there were not helping me at all! My palms were sweating..hearts pounding..head throbbing..i really feel i was gonna faint as we neared his office...
We arrived at his office at around 2:10pm. Gave him a kiss, then off he went to resume his work. So there i was sitting in the car, alone, in the driver's seat for the first time! I said to myself.."this is it. I can do this. I'll be ok.." and off i drove.
To tell you the truth, the driving thingy was actually not that bad! I kindda enjoyed it. I do admit that my knees were still shaking when i arrived home, but hey, i made it home! And i didnt stop there either. I went out driving again half-hour latter...hehehehe!
Any moral to this story? I dont know. There is i guess. But since my fingers hurt from typing on this very shitty cybercafe keyboard, i will just let whoever reads it (if any) to figure it out themselves. So there!
Monday, October 31, 2005
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
Friends for life?!....
Everyone in this world have at least one good friend. For me, i used to have alot! That includes my chilhood buddy, who is also my cousin, my college buddies, my high school chum and not forgetting beloved Mr. A. Well, today, my topic will be focused on my high school chum..
Since primary one, i have bonded with quite a number of people in school. Some of them lasted till i was in form 3! However, things changed. After our form 3 exam, we were gonna be placed according to the grade that we got for our exam. I studied really hard, cause it was kindda like my dream to go into science class. Sounds lame, doesn it?! Hehehe...Well, to cut story short, i got into my dream class. I was happy beyond words and not to mention proud of myself! My parents were also sharing that same feeling with me. Mind you, i was the only one in my family who had finnally made it to this soo-called prestegious class. The reason why its soo prestigous?! Well, because during that time, there were only one science class! The rest is the normal ones. Damn proud of myself!
Anyway, my other friends were not that lucky. All of them ended up in the other classess. It was kindda weird cause i dont know anyone in my new classroom. So every recess, i would go over to my friends class and try to act as if everything is still the same. Well, sad to say, i was wrong. I was treated like a stranger! We would sit together and they would completely ignore me! At first, i thought maybe i dont see them that much, so i dont have that much story to share. Besides, i told myself that they were my friends, and they wouldnt do that to me. However, as time progress, nothing changes. They still ignored me and everytime i try to start a conversation, they would only answer one or two sentences and then ignore me again. They would also hang out after school hours and not invite me! I was hurt! Being ingnored is not a very nice feeling...trust me!
After a month of trying to be friends with them again, but failed, i decided to move on. I told myself.."what good is it to be friends with people who dont want you around? I can make other friends!". So that's what i did and that is exactly what i got.
Making new friend is not an easy task especially if you are in a new environment. In my case, that would be a new class full of people most of whom i dont know. I've seen them around though. Some i've seen even far back when i was in elementary school. But somehow i've never actually been close to anyone of them. Besides, they kindda intimidate me cause prior to being in the same class as them, these bunch of students were considered the best among the best in both primary and seconday school!
Anyway, there was this one girl in class that i knew prior to entering the new and intimidating environment. I knew that girl cause coincidently we went to the same tuition class and we were also living in the same neighbourhood. In a weird kindda way, she was actullay the one who got me comfortable in the new environment. She was also kindda like the reason i hooked up with the people who i still considered as my best friends even after 10 years. Not that i couldnt get my own friends...but anywayyyyyyyy..back to the topic.
Long story cut short (again!), i became close to 5 of my classmates, namelly JO,LO,JAC,GLO, and AUD (I hope they dont mind me putting their names here...=S). We do lots of things together, like the same boyband and we even sit close to each other! We also keep in touch even after our high school years and our albums are filled with each other's pictures! That is how close we all were. However, along the years, something changes. I guess its just us growing up and finding our own ways. During that process, 2 of my close friends(Glo & Aud...) decided to give us the silent treatment. We tried to rekindle the oh-so-obvious failling friendship, but alas, we failled. It kidda saddened me, but hey, i still have the other 3!
Now, it has been close to 10 years since i have know this 3 gorgeous ladies that i place dear to my heart. We have faced many tears and laughters, accomplishments and failures and also critisism from others, but our friendship remains strong as ever! I must admit, it has not been easy to maintain the friendship. Especially when most of us are usually soo far away from each-other. Now, i am the only one who is away from home and all three of them are settled back in our hometown.
Anyway, sometimes when i'm back for the holidays, i cant help but feel kindda left out and that they seem more like normal buddies rather than a good friend to me. Reason?! Well, they tend forget that i have not seen or talk to them for quite some time soo most of their topics would be something completely new to me but old news to them. And there's also the people that i never knew were friends with them suddenly becomes the topic of the day. Talk about complete blurrness!
However, being a good friend, i dont balme them. I guess being far away from them has its disadvantages in a sense that i'm always the last one to get updates on things that involves their lives. I too, at times tend to neglect my part in updating them on what's going on in my live. Who can blame us?! With trying to juggle between work, getting rich, love and family, we hardly have time for friendship! Doing all that at one time is hard work i tell you! But, if its worth it, then why waste it?! As we all know, having a good friend or even a bunch of good friends is not an easy thing to do. It takes alot of patient, heartache, tears and ex-boyfriends (hehe..) to get where all 4 of us are right now. Will our friendship last?! I dont know. I hope so though, but i seriously dont know. Only time will tell. But i know one thing for sure. If ever our friendship falls apart (touchwood!), i will always remember them and will still keep in touch, even if its just merely as a casual friend..
But for the time being, i will not think of that (cause its kindda depressing..) and just try to enjoy myself with them....which i will be doing in..mmm...one weeks time! Wohhooooooooooo..!!
Since primary one, i have bonded with quite a number of people in school. Some of them lasted till i was in form 3! However, things changed. After our form 3 exam, we were gonna be placed according to the grade that we got for our exam. I studied really hard, cause it was kindda like my dream to go into science class. Sounds lame, doesn it?! Hehehe...Well, to cut story short, i got into my dream class. I was happy beyond words and not to mention proud of myself! My parents were also sharing that same feeling with me. Mind you, i was the only one in my family who had finnally made it to this soo-called prestegious class. The reason why its soo prestigous?! Well, because during that time, there were only one science class! The rest is the normal ones. Damn proud of myself!
Anyway, my other friends were not that lucky. All of them ended up in the other classess. It was kindda weird cause i dont know anyone in my new classroom. So every recess, i would go over to my friends class and try to act as if everything is still the same. Well, sad to say, i was wrong. I was treated like a stranger! We would sit together and they would completely ignore me! At first, i thought maybe i dont see them that much, so i dont have that much story to share. Besides, i told myself that they were my friends, and they wouldnt do that to me. However, as time progress, nothing changes. They still ignored me and everytime i try to start a conversation, they would only answer one or two sentences and then ignore me again. They would also hang out after school hours and not invite me! I was hurt! Being ingnored is not a very nice feeling...trust me!
After a month of trying to be friends with them again, but failed, i decided to move on. I told myself.."what good is it to be friends with people who dont want you around? I can make other friends!". So that's what i did and that is exactly what i got.
Making new friend is not an easy task especially if you are in a new environment. In my case, that would be a new class full of people most of whom i dont know. I've seen them around though. Some i've seen even far back when i was in elementary school. But somehow i've never actually been close to anyone of them. Besides, they kindda intimidate me cause prior to being in the same class as them, these bunch of students were considered the best among the best in both primary and seconday school!
Anyway, there was this one girl in class that i knew prior to entering the new and intimidating environment. I knew that girl cause coincidently we went to the same tuition class and we were also living in the same neighbourhood. In a weird kindda way, she was actullay the one who got me comfortable in the new environment. She was also kindda like the reason i hooked up with the people who i still considered as my best friends even after 10 years. Not that i couldnt get my own friends...but anywayyyyyyyy..back to the topic.
Long story cut short (again!), i became close to 5 of my classmates, namelly JO,LO,JAC,GLO, and AUD (I hope they dont mind me putting their names here...=S). We do lots of things together, like the same boyband and we even sit close to each other! We also keep in touch even after our high school years and our albums are filled with each other's pictures! That is how close we all were. However, along the years, something changes. I guess its just us growing up and finding our own ways. During that process, 2 of my close friends(Glo & Aud...) decided to give us the silent treatment. We tried to rekindle the oh-so-obvious failling friendship, but alas, we failled. It kidda saddened me, but hey, i still have the other 3!
Now, it has been close to 10 years since i have know this 3 gorgeous ladies that i place dear to my heart. We have faced many tears and laughters, accomplishments and failures and also critisism from others, but our friendship remains strong as ever! I must admit, it has not been easy to maintain the friendship. Especially when most of us are usually soo far away from each-other. Now, i am the only one who is away from home and all three of them are settled back in our hometown.
Anyway, sometimes when i'm back for the holidays, i cant help but feel kindda left out and that they seem more like normal buddies rather than a good friend to me. Reason?! Well, they tend forget that i have not seen or talk to them for quite some time soo most of their topics would be something completely new to me but old news to them. And there's also the people that i never knew were friends with them suddenly becomes the topic of the day. Talk about complete blurrness!
However, being a good friend, i dont balme them. I guess being far away from them has its disadvantages in a sense that i'm always the last one to get updates on things that involves their lives. I too, at times tend to neglect my part in updating them on what's going on in my live. Who can blame us?! With trying to juggle between work, getting rich, love and family, we hardly have time for friendship! Doing all that at one time is hard work i tell you! But, if its worth it, then why waste it?! As we all know, having a good friend or even a bunch of good friends is not an easy thing to do. It takes alot of patient, heartache, tears and ex-boyfriends (hehe..) to get where all 4 of us are right now. Will our friendship last?! I dont know. I hope so though, but i seriously dont know. Only time will tell. But i know one thing for sure. If ever our friendship falls apart (touchwood!), i will always remember them and will still keep in touch, even if its just merely as a casual friend..
But for the time being, i will not think of that (cause its kindda depressing..) and just try to enjoy myself with them....which i will be doing in..mmm...one weeks time! Wohhooooooooooo..!!
Friday, October 21, 2005
TGIF!!!
Its friday ppl! Man...this week has been a slow one for me. As the day has finnally arrived, all i wish now is that the clock would tick faster! Arrrggghhhhhhh..!!
Thursday, October 20, 2005
Home Sweet Home...
In a weeks time, i'll be home. Ahh..yes. Home sweet home. There's no place on earth that could replace home no matter how shitty you seem to think your home town is. Yeah, deny it all you want, but its true! Shamefully i admit here that was how i felt then. That was way back when going far,far away from your parents and living alone in a strange place was considered cool or at least fun! Hah! Cant believe that i actually fall for that! Silly, silly ol' me....
I guess i did have fun for the first couple of years staying away from my parents. Who wouldnt be when you get to explore new places and meet new faces! Oh yes...i had tons of fun. I also get to meet lots of people from other parts of the world. How cool is that?! Besides, every semester break, which is like 4 times a year, i get to go home. Who could complain with that? I certainlly didnt at that time.
That was then and this is now. After 5 years of living far away from home, i tend to appreciate home much more. If i could, i would certainlly move back home and be closer to my parents, but because of my obligation here, that is not an option for me. Hmm...wait. I dont think i'm READY yet to actually MOVE BACK home. Maybe just take a longer holiday and not the usual one week break which i usually take. Or maybe go home every weekend?! Sounds good eh? Yeah, for a rich kid!..which by the way, i am not. Guess i'll just have to be happy with the option that i have right now. At least its better than not going home at all!
I guess i did have fun for the first couple of years staying away from my parents. Who wouldnt be when you get to explore new places and meet new faces! Oh yes...i had tons of fun. I also get to meet lots of people from other parts of the world. How cool is that?! Besides, every semester break, which is like 4 times a year, i get to go home. Who could complain with that? I certainlly didnt at that time.
That was then and this is now. After 5 years of living far away from home, i tend to appreciate home much more. If i could, i would certainlly move back home and be closer to my parents, but because of my obligation here, that is not an option for me. Hmm...wait. I dont think i'm READY yet to actually MOVE BACK home. Maybe just take a longer holiday and not the usual one week break which i usually take. Or maybe go home every weekend?! Sounds good eh? Yeah, for a rich kid!..which by the way, i am not. Guess i'll just have to be happy with the option that i have right now. At least its better than not going home at all!
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
HUNGER...!
Its officially 12 hours ago that i last tasted food! I made it! If only i can do this for the next 29 days...
I am soo hungry now that all i think about now is food..food..food..and more food. Wonder where Mr. A and i will have dinner. He suggested Pizza Hut. I agreed to it at first, but now when i think about it...starve myself the whole day and in the end i get to eat pizza?! *sigh*. Hopes he changes his mind and decides to treat me dinner somewhere else..but if he doesnt, pizza hut will it be then! At the rate i'm doing right now, i would eat anything that is put infront of me!
Pepperoni/hawaian pizzas..garlic breads.. mushroom soup..salads..bread sticks..YUM!!
Just called mr.A and he's still somewhere in the city...stuck in the STUPID JAM!! That means i will be stuck in the office, god knows till what time. Shoot! I just hate it when this kinda of things happen..which is like on a usual basis. Him stuck in a jam somewhere and me stuck in the office while everyone has left. What a bummer! What's even worse is when both of us is stuck in the jam on the way home. Its like never ending jam!!! When will it all end?!?!
I am soo hungry now that all i think about now is food..food..food..and more food. Wonder where Mr. A and i will have dinner. He suggested Pizza Hut. I agreed to it at first, but now when i think about it...starve myself the whole day and in the end i get to eat pizza?! *sigh*. Hopes he changes his mind and decides to treat me dinner somewhere else..but if he doesnt, pizza hut will it be then! At the rate i'm doing right now, i would eat anything that is put infront of me!
Pepperoni/hawaian pizzas..garlic breads.. mushroom soup..salads..bread sticks..YUM!!
Just called mr.A and he's still somewhere in the city...stuck in the STUPID JAM!! That means i will be stuck in the office, god knows till what time. Shoot! I just hate it when this kinda of things happen..which is like on a usual basis. Him stuck in a jam somewhere and me stuck in the office while everyone has left. What a bummer! What's even worse is when both of us is stuck in the jam on the way home. Its like never ending jam!!! When will it all end?!?!
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
BLA..BLA..BLA.....
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Last night i watched Drew Barrymore's movie..i think it was called "Riding in cars with boys". Loved it! I've watched it before but didnt actually saw the ending cause the CD that i bought was spoiled. So yesterday was the first time i saw the full version of the movie. Did i mentioned that i loved it?! Drew is such a talented actress and oh...the young kid who played her son...talented! Think i'm gonna try and get myself a DVD of that movie so that i can watch it over and over again!! Happinessss...!!
A collegue of mine just gave birth a month or so ago, so today she brought her baby to the office. Oh my god! The baby looks adorable!! I've seen the baby in pictures and in pictures she looks like..well, babies. I was wrong. She looks soo cute in person!
Hmm..I wonder how my kids will look like. Like all mommies and daddies, i secretly hope that my baby will look adorable. But before that, i would have to endure morning sickness, followed by difficulty in walking/sleeping because of the pregnancy, and last of all....the part where i have to deliver the baby. That is when i would have to endure the worst of pain you could imagine! (Well, i have never experieced it myself, but as a woman, i can imagine it!)Ouch! Pain!! Ok, enough about delivery or labor pain. Lets just say that when the time comes, us ladies would not have any other choice but to experience it. So..yeah....that is something that we would not be able to run away from. Like it or not!
Oh, before i forget, tomorrow the muslims will start their fasting month. This year i have promised myself that i will try and finish fasting for the whole month! I guess it'll be a good way for me to loose weight. Hehehe...So tonight, i will weight myself and by the end of the month i will again weight myself and see if there would be any difference. I CAN DO THIS! I CAN DO THIS!
Do i seriously think that i'm able to complete the whole month of fasting?? Hmm...we'll just have to wait and see then, wont we?!
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Last night i watched Drew Barrymore's movie..i think it was called "Riding in cars with boys". Loved it! I've watched it before but didnt actually saw the ending cause the CD that i bought was spoiled. So yesterday was the first time i saw the full version of the movie. Did i mentioned that i loved it?! Drew is such a talented actress and oh...the young kid who played her son...talented! Think i'm gonna try and get myself a DVD of that movie so that i can watch it over and over again!! Happinessss...!!
A collegue of mine just gave birth a month or so ago, so today she brought her baby to the office. Oh my god! The baby looks adorable!! I've seen the baby in pictures and in pictures she looks like..well, babies. I was wrong. She looks soo cute in person!
Hmm..I wonder how my kids will look like. Like all mommies and daddies, i secretly hope that my baby will look adorable. But before that, i would have to endure morning sickness, followed by difficulty in walking/sleeping because of the pregnancy, and last of all....the part where i have to deliver the baby. That is when i would have to endure the worst of pain you could imagine! (Well, i have never experieced it myself, but as a woman, i can imagine it!)Ouch! Pain!! Ok, enough about delivery or labor pain. Lets just say that when the time comes, us ladies would not have any other choice but to experience it. So..yeah....that is something that we would not be able to run away from. Like it or not!
Oh, before i forget, tomorrow the muslims will start their fasting month. This year i have promised myself that i will try and finish fasting for the whole month! I guess it'll be a good way for me to loose weight. Hehehe...So tonight, i will weight myself and by the end of the month i will again weight myself and see if there would be any difference. I CAN DO THIS! I CAN DO THIS!
Do i seriously think that i'm able to complete the whole month of fasting?? Hmm...we'll just have to wait and see then, wont we?!
Monday, October 03, 2005
Monday Blues..
Urgh...this is the day that i wasn't looking forward to. I wish the weekend was longer. Kindda didnt spend the weekend as how i wanted. One reason was b'cos dear sister was in town. Stayed with us on Friday, and left the next day. I love my sister, but i would prefer that if she comes down next time, it would be on a holiday and NOT ON A BUSINESS TRIP! So sister, if you read this, know that i love you but do taka note, will ya?! =)
Nothing interesting happened to me today, so i might not write that much on today's event. Besides, cant really remember what went on apart from doing work, work and work! *Sigh*..what a life...=/
Urgh...this is the day that i wasn't looking forward to. I wish the weekend was longer. Kindda didnt spend the weekend as how i wanted. One reason was b'cos dear sister was in town. Stayed with us on Friday, and left the next day. I love my sister, but i would prefer that if she comes down next time, it would be on a holiday and NOT ON A BUSINESS TRIP! So sister, if you read this, know that i love you but do taka note, will ya?! =)
Nothing interesting happened to me today, so i might not write that much on today's event. Besides, cant really remember what went on apart from doing work, work and work! *Sigh*..what a life...=/
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